Veronica VanessaI was a bit stressed up today :/ Guitar instructor hunted me down for concert programme outline. There's Chem test tomorrow. Then there's the biggest headache of all time, the elasticity of the band, although I was deciding to quit if things didn't improve (it did). I almost stoned during Math class quiz, not knowing how to solve the question. And then came the final blow, I failed Physics for the first time in AJ, if not in my whole life. Well, half-failed, technically, since it was an S, but a failure is a failure. And then I became so sensitive to those around me. Physics group discussion was in Chinese, as always, and I was too tired to bother. Teacher came around and asked why I did not participate in the discussion and I told him the truth that it was in a language I do not speak anyway. Teacher asked the group to speak in English. It lasted for not more than five minutes before they switched back to Chinese and so I stopped trying to fit in. The whole thing made me feel like a stupid, idiotic misfit.
I kind of hoping there will be GP oral exam, you know. Just so that people will bother to speak English. Lol. Never mind me, I'm just a misfit.
But really, WHO THE HELL CARES. For all I know, you can all talk among yourselves and I won't bother. I will either drop the subject or just study on my own. It doesn't matter which, for the first option since I won't be doing it in uni anyway, and for the second option, well, since I know I am capable of doing so.
Ok. Venting frustration done.
In the end Rubber Band did register for AJI. In the end the first three members were the ones who stick. Last time, we couldn't find a bassist and a drummer. Well, the two J1s joining us couldn't find guitarists and vocalists when they tried to form a band. It all sounds like a jigsaw puzzle to me O.O xD They have what we need, and we have what they need! (:
I think it's just because I'm too stressed up in mind. Yea. I grow very sensitive of many people. Then again, it's the end of the term, and my parents are coming tomorrow, yeah! (:
Friday.
I wonder if not having my parents and siblings around had affected me in certain ways. Well, for one, I know how much I hate being told what to do, maybe because I am not used to it anymore. And sometimes I constantly feel insecure, as if I have to fight for my survival -_- cos there are no parents who are physically around for me to fall back on. I wonder what else.
Haha. But really, telling you how stressed I am and all really helped. It reminded me how I DO have someone supporting me always (:
Ok. Rubber band thing solved. I need my mental rest. It had drained me the past days.
Chem test! Rawr. *burns notes, dissolves in water, drinks*
-vNs-
I kind of hoping there will be GP oral exam, you know. Just so that people will bother to speak English. Lol. Never mind me, I'm just a misfit.
But really, WHO THE HELL CARES. For all I know, you can all talk among yourselves and I won't bother. I will either drop the subject or just study on my own. It doesn't matter which, for the first option since I won't be doing it in uni anyway, and for the second option, well, since I know I am capable of doing so.
Ok. Venting frustration done.
In the end Rubber Band did register for AJI. In the end the first three members were the ones who stick. Last time, we couldn't find a bassist and a drummer. Well, the two J1s joining us couldn't find guitarists and vocalists when they tried to form a band. It all sounds like a jigsaw puzzle to me O.O xD They have what we need, and we have what they need! (:
I think it's just because I'm too stressed up in mind. Yea. I grow very sensitive of many people. Then again, it's the end of the term, and my parents are coming tomorrow, yeah! (:
Friday.
I wonder if not having my parents and siblings around had affected me in certain ways. Well, for one, I know how much I hate being told what to do, maybe because I am not used to it anymore. And sometimes I constantly feel insecure, as if I have to fight for my survival -_- cos there are no parents who are physically around for me to fall back on. I wonder what else.
Haha. But really, telling you how stressed I am and all really helped. It reminded me how I DO have someone supporting me always (:
Ok. Rubber band thing solved. I need my mental rest. It had drained me the past days.
Chem test! Rawr. *burns notes, dissolves in water, drinks*
-vNs-