Haha, blogging less these days :P Either life is just so-so, or I'm busy (with both happy and dull moments, i.e. weekends AND school days :( ). Maybe a mixture of both.

Anyway. I want to congratulate myself (LOL) for getting through the past weeks before the Wednesday of March holiday. True, we didn't make it to the finals, but I feel strangely satisfied and accomplished O.O Maybe it was due to the fact that we went through LOTS of adversity to finally be able to perform on Wednesday. I did feel like giving up halfway, but I didn't. I begged, cajoled, persisted, almost went crazy, and voila. At least we end up with a complete band formation :P I don't know. I know it's strange, but I do feel accomplished. With keyboardist quitting, bassist super busy, drummer quitting after weeks of arguments, rhythm guitarist overseas on audition day etc etc, I was more than glad that we could at least perform in the end -_-" There are of course minor problems like new bassist's bass not working, etc, but that's like nothing compared to what we had gone through.

Haha. So yea, lesson learned: do your best no matter what. Regardless of the outcome, you'll feel satisfied and won't look back at the experience as a failure but rather, a success in overcoming obstacles. Life is about becoming a better you, the only one you should compare to is yourself.

Strange. Last night, I was the one who couldn't sleep well because I miss you so much.

Thursday! ;)

I've decided. I'm in a spiritual mess, I know. I've gone astray and now I'm scared. But this easter, maybe, I will find the courage to mend it.

Lord, help me.

-vNs-

Hi. I'm back from school for a three-hour break -_-" My usual 1 1/2 hour break becomes 3 hour as history tutorial is self-study time for today, teacher is on course. And I only used half an hour to eat lunch, no more than that, so yea, I have 3 hour to spend before coming back to school for Chem later. Might be taking nap soon to recharge my brain cells ;)

Physics lecture was omg super boring. Maybe it was also because I had my mind on another thing, which can only be taken care of tomorrow afternoon :( But yea. This is what I did on Physics lecture: :P

:P The first one :P
Style found by accident.


Of course Monday blues is green.


Schtroumpf!!


UGH. This one was among my favourites cos it was so bright and yellow and white and nice. Then it turned out this ugly after I scanned it :( :( :( :( :( But yea, that's the idea, the brightest darkness :P


:D :D :D That's me with frizzy hair! xD

Dearest Shanky,

You must have been an armchair in your past life, cos you make me feel so comfortable ;)

HAHA I can start my own cheesy pick-up lines list xDxDxD

Anyway.

Term 2 is knocking at my door. Help.

An announcement coming out tomorrow, but I've got a more urgent thing on my mind. And I have no idea how to do it, who to go to first and all. ARGH.

Take it one step at a time.

The cat is missing its mouse. Literal mouse -_-"

-vNs-

I was a bit stressed up today :/ Guitar instructor hunted me down for concert programme outline. There's Chem test tomorrow. Then there's the biggest headache of all time, the elasticity of the band, although I was deciding to quit if things didn't improve (it did). I almost stoned during Math class quiz, not knowing how to solve the question. And then came the final blow, I failed Physics for the first time in AJ, if not in my whole life. Well, half-failed, technically, since it was an S, but a failure is a failure. And then I became so sensitive to those around me. Physics group discussion was in Chinese, as always, and I was too tired to bother. Teacher came around and asked why I did not participate in the discussion and I told him the truth that it was in a language I do not speak anyway. Teacher asked the group to speak in English. It lasted for not more than five minutes before they switched back to Chinese and so I stopped trying to fit in. The whole thing made me feel like a stupid, idiotic misfit.

I kind of hoping there will be GP oral exam, you know. Just so that people will bother to speak English. Lol. Never mind me, I'm just a misfit.

But really, WHO THE HELL CARES. For all I know, you can all talk among yourselves and I won't bother. I will either drop the subject or just study on my own. It doesn't matter which, for the first option since I won't be doing it in uni anyway, and for the second option, well, since I know I am capable of doing so.

Ok. Venting frustration done.

In the end Rubber Band did register for AJI. In the end the first three members were the ones who stick. Last time, we couldn't find a bassist and a drummer. Well, the two J1s joining us couldn't find guitarists and vocalists when they tried to form a band. It all sounds like a jigsaw puzzle to me O.O xD They have what we need, and we have what they need! (:

I think it's just because I'm too stressed up in mind. Yea. I grow very sensitive of many people. Then again, it's the end of the term, and my parents are coming tomorrow, yeah! (:

Friday.

I wonder if not having my parents and siblings around had affected me in certain ways. Well, for one, I know how much I hate being told what to do, maybe because I am not used to it anymore. And sometimes I constantly feel insecure, as if I have to fight for my survival -_- cos there are no parents who are physically around for me to fall back on. I wonder what else.

Haha. But really, telling you how stressed I am and all really helped. It reminded me how I DO have someone supporting me always (:

Ok. Rubber band thing solved. I need my mental rest. It had drained me the past days.

Chem test! Rawr. *burns notes, dissolves in water, drinks*

-vNs-

AAAAAH.

I WANT TO SLEEP.

Yet I still need to wait for an sms. Rawr.

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Okok. Anyway. Tiring day.

vNs passed 2.4km run by 6 seconds today. vNs is worried about her NAPFA test :(

Moreover, vNs' head is going to explode with all this 'human traffic' problems @.@ Zl faster reply!!!

However, vNs is happy that tomorrow is Friday! (: And vNs had gotten parents' permission to skip CCA next friday. LOL.

And vNs is totally stressed out by maths. Now there are two options for vNs, one is to drop Maths to H1, which is only logical, since she will then be able to do better in the subject, and anyway, she's not going to do anything relating to Maths in uni. Still, she's going for the second option for the next one month, which is to fight and see what happens. She has strategies, of course, she always does. It will be a matter of whether or not the strategies will work, whether or not she will have the time and energy to carry them out.

vNs thought she was going to do fine this year, yet of course stress lingered around. vNs misses home. vNs misses her family. vNs misses KS. vNs misses last year's moments of having friends to mug with every weekend. vNs has to admit she misses those hardcore mugging sessions with Lijing, Tommy and Win and Simon.

vNs is horrified with the solo part of La La Land. Sobs.

FASTER REPLYYYY.

vNs thinks she should change the solo part of La La Land, but her brain is totally fried now. vNs suddenly thinks she sucks at guitar :(

Abdominal breathing!

-vNs-

Woah. CCA was super hectic. With Dylan and Su Xian down with illnesses, it was like left to me and Mavis to settle concert stuff and J1 stuff and competition stuff and bla bla bla. Some more the roster for tomorrow was not done. Now it's done, of course.

The point today is I see what Mr Choo means, the need to separate J1s into different groups. I tried to take them for half an hour today and I was rather frustrated. The gap was too big. Hence the need for groupings.

And after what I saw today, I really wonder what will be the most effective way to teach someone how to read music. Somehow I feel like, yes, it is tough to learn, but it is tougher to teach. I don't know where to start. I had been reading music for almost as long as I had been reading ABCs, and I forgot how it all started. I really want to try. If there's a volunteer willing to learn how to read music, for example, I will try my best to help. I guess I'm a bit biased towards people who can play guitar but cannot read music, simply because I do know an amazing person who falls into this category. KS ;)

Hmm.

There are lots of ideas in my mind, lots of things I want to do, it's that period of time again when I have an explosion of ideas inside. And of course, there is not enough time to do what I want or need to do. Heck, I barely have time to practise for this Saturday morning's jamming :'( The guitar is....rather difficult :/ May even need to wake up at 4am to practise guitar -_-""""" LOL.

Ok. Rest!!! Super tired out of the short hours of sleep I had been getting :( Long school hours doesn't help at all. But I do enjoy my time in CCA, although yes, things go haywire! X.X

-vNs-

Woo. Am at home for a 1 1/2 hour break before CCA. I was grumbling to myself about how unbearable the weather had been the last few days when I noticed an unfamiliar card in my room. On it, written something about 'study' and so I thought it's probably just another educational institution flyer that came in with the post (just like the NUS one I received a couple of weeks ago). I picked it up nonetheless and wow :D

It's probably the first overseas postcard I had ever received. Yea, I had never received any letter from overseas before, as far as I remember.

It was my birthday postcard from Win O.O Apparently, the card had traveled all the way from Oxford to reach Singapore safely xD And wow, although Win did tell me when he's sending me a postcard, it was quite a surprise still, haha. Thanks a lot! x)

Feel like birthday again. Hahaha.

But seriously, the weather's so friggin hot every single day X.X

Oh, the 'study' thing written on the post card: "Why study? The more I study, the more I know. The more I know, the more I forget. The more I forget, the less I know, so why study?" XD A bit of an irony to me, considering it's a card from Oxford, haha.

Today, seven J1s are joining us as the main ensemble! Yay! (:

And to top it all, tomorrow's Wednesday! x)

Ugggghhh. Tonnes of schoolwork :'((

-vNs-

Be grateful with what you have now, for that is what other people might have just lost.

Reading an end has never been pleasant anyway :/

-vNs-