I don't think I can face it :( The week that is to come, I mean.

There are like four history tutorials to do. I think I'll end up doing one or at most two, if I can do any at all. My brain is like totally not working for this topic :( Then there's Chem test, which is like on Tuesday morning, first period. Plus Chem lesson will extend for half an hour on Monday, which is already the most tiring day in a week for me, what's with 7.5 (now 8) hours of lessons X.X (only one break) Then there's X-Country on Thursday, for which my job sounds intense :O I'll need to survive Wednesday and Thursday (and probably Tuesday) without Kally as well. Pff. GP will be so great.

I feel the strong urge to pon one of the days -_-" XD

But my attendance this year hasn't been too good :( What's with all the diseases and injuries plaguing me, one of which is sloth :P

Yea, yea, I know I shouldn't be so pessimistic, be "emo". I know that I should look at the brighter side of things :( But a lot of people know, yet few do. Unfortunately, I'm one of the majority :P At least in this case of school.

It's just frigging mundane and depressing :(

The only happy thoughts about the coming week is because it'll be KS' birthday on Wednesday x)) And that we'll have a long, long weekend at the end :D (followed by June holiday...lessons :P xD)

Gosh. I'm drained of motivation. Like, really :/

Get well soon, KS :( Mwacks! (:

AAAAH. I CAN'T SEEM TO SLEEP. AAAAH.

Feels cold without you around :(

But I had a nice weekend! (: Been so long since we spent Friday to Sunday without plans (: It was a nice weekend, although of course I'd rather what happened today didn't.....it seems so painful T.T Recover faaasst like express mail!! (:

Lol we broke the record this weekend -_-" :P

Teletummy, teletummy~~! *growls*

-vNs-

Lalala. Of all days. Chem SPA. Diarrhea.

-vNs-

Schtroumpffffff pleeaaaasseeeee I want schtroumpf!!!! a;lskdjfa;ldksjf;a

Okok. Back to sanity (?) XD

AAAH. THE BIG DAY'S TWO DAYS AWAY.

I feel like it's as if I'm counting down days to my wedding day or something =.=" Can you imagine what I'll be like before my wedding if I'm like this before a concert? =.=" xD

Apparently the Internet doesn't really like me. Come on, stop lagging.

I've changed. I know I've changed since that day I was broken into pieces. The last one, I mean. I know I've been broken so many times :P Sorry, I'm made of thin glass -.-" Anyway. Yea. I've changed from a decision-maker into one whose decision is made for. I just don't care, or at least trying not to care, cos everytime I do so, I get hurt.

Hmm. Did a lot a lot of reminiscing today xD Was reminiscing about the past 1+ year in guitar, and then about the past 8+ (or 9th depending on definition--wah, sounds like history) months with KS afterwards (:

Guitar is funny. How I got to know people, how my perspective of them change. I was thinking how my perspective on everyone had changed since last year when I suddenly thought, "I guess my admiration on Zl's guitar skills is the only thing that doesn't change," when I realised that it did change, from one of admiration of skills to one more on admiration of his passion for guitar. There's no constant in guitar. Even who I mingled with changed from time to time and I can relate to almost everyone in guitar due to this. It's...kind of awesome, the memories I have in guitar. A lot of things are movie-like, really. After what happened last last week, though, I wonder how will I view the whole experience after I end it. Will I look back and remember the happy memories? Or will I remember the vivid, traumatic bad ones and recall the experience as a bad, sad one? It's a mystery indeed.

And when I talk about how movie-like things are in guitar, I haven't talked about the things I experienced with KS. The first time I met him was at his house. We accidentally (really) got a couple seat when we watched our first movie (and at that time we weren't together, so I just pretended I don't know that it's a couple seat -.- :P now we laugh about it :P). We were playing in the same band. We got together at 1.30am at his house -.-" (I always got a "O.O" reaction when someone asked me.) We've experienced a temporary long-distance relationship (HAHA long, long 3 weeks! xP) We've quarreled until it was very bad. We made up and became stronger. I don't know. Lots of things, if not all, are just movie-like O.O

Honestly, I LOVE it when things in life get movie-like. Yet I know that reality is not that exciting, nor as rosy. Yet I realised that I did experience a lot a lot of movie-like things xDxD

Yep, I still remember the feelings, the heartbeat getting faster, the sudden pause in breathing, the dream-like atmosphere.

I love you!! ((: Amazing life indeed, after you came into the picture (:

I suddenly remember how I likened JC life to a canvas. Well, it's a very unpredictable canvas. I got a very dramatic picture painted on it. The splash of colour started when you came around! (:

-vNs-

Just a realisation.

My blog ain't funny anymore, unlike what it was like two years ago :(

Sad but true, true.

I can't wait for schtroumpf.

Then maybe it will be schtroumpf.

-vNs-

I feel like I'm going to faint. My knees buckled when I walked, and my head felt as if it's not there. Although I feel slightly better now, that does not hold true for my state of mind. Yep, I put it on hold, but it's in a state of wreck.

I need some rest. And the rest I mean is really rest.

I don't even feel like screaming like I usually do when I'm upset. I'm simply spent.

Honestly, if there is a means where I can exchange my feelings with a robotic non-existency of one, I will do it, at least for a couple of days. I need an anaesthetic.

Ok now I feel like swearing.

Fast forward.

Run to the grave.

-vNs-