Veronica VanessaToday, I:
1. Took my last prelim paper.
2. Renew my internet contract. (and upgrade the speed)
3. Had a nice solo lunch at The Soup Spoon.
4. Went to place a special order at Borders. (haha that almost rhymes. I shouldve made more than one order :P)
5. Went to get a backup battery for phone (i'm just so used to my old phone, in which you can play pool for hours and still have at least a half-full battery -.-)
6. Went for a haircut.....no. The hairdresser wasn't in today :( So I'm going back next week or so. Irritating fringe :/
If a younger me, say, four and a half years ago, was told that I'd be doing all that alone in a foreign country, I bet she will be excited, eyes brimming with a sense of adventure. Well..:/ Yea, here I am, living half the life I dreamed about. Half, cos, well, I _am_ in a foreign country, but it's not far enough like I imagined it to be XD
These years I'm torn between the dream I (used to?) have and other thoughts. If I go further from here, I may fulfil my needs for adventure, I will make new friends, experience new cultures, get immersed in another world entirely. Yet by doing so I may sever relationships I had fostered here. It'll be so damn difficult to see my family too. If I live far away, I may not know when will be the last time I see someone for I may not come back that often. On the other hand, I still find it difficult to accept that my future children will be victims of a more and more competitive lifestyle. I guess it is unavoidable, but if there is any way I can avoid it...
Of course, reality check. It is super expensive to go further from here, and with my AJ prelim results, I don't believe I can get any scholarships that get me anywhere -.-" So, forget it :/
Down with sore throat :( and flu-like aching body :( Wondering whether or not to go to school tomorrow. Apparently, this is always the cycle: started to get sick --> still go to school --> get worse --> go to see doctor and miss 1-2 day(s) of school --> get better after a long time -.- Why can't it be: started to get sick --> go to see doctor --> recover fast? :/
Let's hope I'll get well tomorrow? :/
-vNs-